Sunday, October 26, 2008
When i was 7 years old.
my father took a chair and threw it at me.
That was the start of the abusing years.
Most of the items he used was like belt plates chair.
I cried a lot.
I never did tell this to anyone close to me.
Even people who are close to me.
Maybe i did but anyway
people say i cry a lot.
im not a man or anything.
But if you went through 7 years of abusment.
See if you would be in this state or not.
You don't know how painful it was.
I was only 7 years old.
being thrown around like a rag doll.
being slap punched kicked.
Nobody have seen the scars that my father left me behind.
But when after i had my PSLE that is Primary 6
I stood up but fell dramatically.
Took a belt wacked me.
slap me in the face.
threw a chair books .
anything that he can grab hold of.
I did not bleed but had a lot of bruises on my back and face.
Nobody have seen those brusies.
Anyway dear readers
I'm still being punched kicked and slapped.
but if i just go through this for another 5 years I'll be okay.
Now he does not do as much as he would do to me when i was young.
I can still feel the pain.
Sometimes i just wanna call the police.
run away from home.
Suicide.
insanitic thoughts came to me
during sec 1,
He punch me in the face.
Threw a dozen of books. (that's why audrey my bedroom is in a mess especially my shelf)
whacked me with a "rotan". (sp)
Just beacuse I forgot to give him a glass of water.
Make small matter a huge problem is his daily routine.
I really want to say to other abused kids.
Seek out help.
XOXO
~ Uff
CIAO BELLA.
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